The View alum Sherri Shepherd is opening up about her controversial surrogacy and divorce.

Four months ago, a judge ordered the comedic actress to pay child support for the surrogate child she and her ex husband Lamar Sally arranged to bring into this earth but was born after the couple split.

In a new interview with PEOPLE, Shepherd suggests she agreed to the surrogacy in the first place out of fear Sally might have left her if she didn’t.

“My situation was a sense of, I didn’t state what I needed and what I wanted and what I didn’t want for being scared of somebody leaving the relationship,” Sherri told the magazine at a recent charity event. “There are consequences to everything, but I was scared to say, ‘That’s not going to work for me. I don’t want that.’”

Sherri has plans to file an appeal to the Pennsylvania judge’s ruling.

“He’s happy,” adds Sherri. “There nothing I can do. It’s out of my hands. You move on and I have a son. I have to take care of him so everything is good.”

Sherri also has a son named Jeffrey from her marriage to ex-husband Jeff Tarpley.